He had promised himself he would never have another drink.

June 5, 2009


He had promised himself

He woke up with a tremendous hangover and made a definitive decision to never have another drink again.

He was totally convinced that alcohol caused him immense harm, not only to his body, but also to his soul.

Not to mention that his relationship with his kids and his wife were going nowhere, just like his professional situation.

He had lost his job two years ago and never got another one.

In part, it was because he didn’t want another job.

In part, he simply could not follow orders.

With the loss of his job, and without having received any salary for two years, he was financially broken.

He now felt that his family was falling apart as well.

That is why he decided never to drink again.

But he made this decision at 10 in the morning, while suffering from a tremendous hangover, headache, nausea and unbearable anguish.

At 6 PM the same day he changed his mind.

After a horrible, melancholy day of dark thoughts and a looming pessimism over his future, a wonderful idea crossed his mind and a beautiful, warm feeling gave him some hope.

He thought that maybe it wasn’t the end yet.

He thought that maybe his situation was just a bad phase.

In one instant he felt like the good old Francisco again.

Smart, creative, sharp, a happy man with a great sense of humor, destined to be a winner and loved by everyone.

Those thoughts and feelings were stronger than everything else.

They were proof that life is supposed to be lived with intensity, without fear.

And in his case, particularly his case being a such talented man, he could not be taken over by cheap thoughts and feelings.

Happiness, he thought, is for those who dare, for those who seek heaven, for those who take risks, for those who believe in something greater than the mundane, for those who have courage.

Then he went to a bar and ordered a vodka, straight up.

After the first vodka, he couldn’t remember what happened.

Next morning he woke up with a tremendous hangover and  made a definitive decision to never have another drink again.

ART BY JARBAS AGNELLI

READ ALSO : A Round in the Life of a Fighter(based on a real invented story)

ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

Antonio Costa Neto is freelancer writer and has worked in some of the most important ad agencies in Brazil and the United States. He now lives in Miami where he owns and operates a marketing consultant company. Throughout his career in advertising, he has won top international awards in the Cannes, London and New York festivals, as well as in the Clio Awards and many Latin American festivals. Antonio Costa Neto has written numerous plays and screen plays in Brazil.
Womb Wrecker Syndrome is his second book.Antonio holds a BA in philosophy and sociology from Universidade Federal do Rio Grande do Sul.

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44 Responses to “He had promised himself he would never have another drink.”

  1. Já fiz esta promessa inúmeras vezes! rsss
    Caro Toninho, com o maior prazer, vou repassar
    o seu blog para os meus amigos.

    Grande abraço,

    Silvino

  2. acostaneto said

    Keep coming back!

  3. Wow man, reminds me of me and a lot of people i now know, very well written and captures the powerlessness of it all,

    • acostaneto said

      I am one of them.
      Please,keep coming back to my blog.
      And if it is possible, suggest to your friend to visit it.
      Thank you very much.

  4. benhur said

    fiz esta promessa e cumpri, depois de destruir um Vectra novo num semáforo. Alí foi a decisão. Ou a “marvada” ou a vida…Isto sim é Mãe na Zona. E nem falei pai Brigadiano. ah aha hah

  5. Machado said

    Fucking brilliant. This is Samsara.

  6. Quem me indicou seu blog foi o Marcelo Machado. Indicou porque sabia que eu ia gostar. Muito bom este texto. Vou ler o outros.

    Um abraço.

  7. Miriam said

    Eu tinha certeza de seria um sucesso! Sempre torcendo por voce!
    Bjsssss
    Mi

  8. yolanda said

    This is BRILLIANT…

    Is how we all are…what is important is be able to see it.

    The way it is written is FANTASTIC…I want to read the next chapter.

  9. Hi Toninho,

    Written from the heart.
    And so well.
    In a language you didn’t speak until just a few short years ago.
    Focus on Conrad, one of the greatest stylists in the English language who only became an Anglophone in his early twenties and went on to change literature.
    Eide and I, by the way, are in Paris.
    We’ve been here for three months now and will stay for another three.
    While here, I’ve spoken at Shakespeare and Company (the bookstore that first published James Joyce because he couldn’t find a publisher in either Ireland or England) and at the American Library in the shadow of the Eiffel Tower. Photos of both events are up on my Crimespace page.
    Then we went to Bristol, in the UK, to participate in Crimefest, where I did a panel. There’s a photo of that as well.
    I’ve just completed book #4 in the Silva series, the one slated for release in December of 2010. The cover for Dying Gasp, the third book, is up on Amazon.com and looks bloody good.
    And I’m getting my nose down to complete the first draft of #5 by the time we leave here for the ‘States. It will be a short visit, including four days at Bouchercon in Indianapolis. Then, on to Brazil. But we return in November when I’ll be doing the Miami Book Fair. And again in March to do Left Coast Crime in Los Angeles and tour the new release.
    Speaking of touring, before coming here we did a coast-to-coast that brought us West and North as far as Seattle and East and North as far as Vermont. On the way, we hit Texas, Arizona, LA, San Francisco, Portland, Oregon and a number of other places. On the way back, it was even into Minneapolis. Minneapolis, my friend, in the winter. I do not wish it upon anyone.
    This life as a writer (in English) is a good one. Too bad more people can’t surivive doing it in Portuguese. So much talent in Brazil, and so little of it translated into lucrative fiction markets.
    I hope the kids and Luciana are well.
    Keep in touch.

    • acostaneto said

      Querido Leighton,

      Obrigado pelo comentário.
      Fico feliz em saber do seu sucesso como escritor. Ele mais que merecido.
      Espero que esteja tudo bem com você, coma Eidi e com as crianças( como você costuma dizer).
      Estando em Miami, vamos tentar nos ver.
      Meus telefones são 305.3428217 e 3056637302.
      Abraço, sorte, saúde e sucesso.

      TN

  10. OLÁ QUERIDÃO, TUDO BEM?
    EE AGORA…. NÃO SEI INGLÊS, ACREDITA? MAS TENHO CERTEZA DE QUE O TEXTO É BOM.
    BEIJOS,
    VANESSA…
    ;D

    • acostaneto said

      Oi vanessa.
      Lá no finzinho tem uma versnao em Português.
      Vou comecar a postar nos dois idiomas.
      Abraço e obrigado pelo comentário
      A.

  11. Vamos ‘Toninho.
    Está combinado.
    Eu te ligo no início do Outubro.

    Um Abraço,

    L.

  12. acostaneto said

    oba

  13. Opa, coloquei uma cedilha em “anotacoes”
    Segue o link correto: http://www.anotacoesmentais.blogspot.com

    Abração!

  14. Newton Bento said

    Great story,
    beautifully written.
    Concisa e simples,
    a história em looping nos lembra a condenaçao de Sísifo e Prometeu.
    (E a vodka também rói o fígado. Ra-ra.)

    Parabéns.

  15. Muito bom. De alguma maneira me lembrou os contos de Ray Bradbury, que eu passei minha adolescência lendo.

    Vou ler e recomendar.

    Abs

    Jarbas

  16. Julice said

    Toninho, vc já leu Diário de um Magro, do Mário Prata? Trata-se do relato diário de um magricela que foi para um spa com um amigo gordo. E entre todas as loucuras com as quais me deliciei, uma grande verdade veio à tona: o que nos embriaga não é o álccol, mas sim o bar! Melhor do que aquela boa e velha sidra…só água com gás, gelo e limão esprimido! Beijoca.

  17. Ana said

    Gostei demais da conta ! =)
    Assim como gostei do livro.
    Keep them coming !!
    Beijo
    GuiGui

    • acostaneto said

      Que bom escutar isso, Guigui.
      Vou postar toda semana um texto novo.
      Se puder, leia sempre.
      E recomende.
      Beijo

  18. Miriam said

    Oi, Tunix
    Palpite de quem lida com isso todo o tempo, posso? Acho que seria ainda melhor ler também o seu texto na versão original, ou seja, no bom e velho portuga brasileiro, claro!
    bjs
    Mirox

    • acostaneto said

      é que estou escrevendo direto em inglês. se for escrever em português terei que traduzir.beijo e pbrogadp pela dica

  19. beingmkt said

    deu vontade de fazer a versao feminina (em protuguês, é claro, beibe). se fizer e nao ficar com vergonha, mando pra tu ver. hihihi…

  20. clarisse said

    ei, era eu, e não a being, que estava falando aquilo…(deu vontade de fazer a versao feminina (em protuguês, é claro, beibe). se fizer e nao ficar com vergonha, mando pra tu ver. hihihi…)

  21. Ali B said

    Thankyou for the beautiful reminder of where I and many people come from, what brings us together, and where we would be without eachother.
    One day at a time
    peace love and hope
    Ali B

  22. Bia, Medianeira e Rosangela said

    OIIIIIIII TONINHO!!!!!!! FOMOS TUAS COLEGAS NO INFANTE D.HENRIQUE (SERÁ QUE AINDA TE LEMBRAS…?) E ESTAMOS ORGANIZANDO UM ENCONTRO. ENTÃO PASSAMOS A TARDE PROCURANDO OS AMIGOS NA WEB. FOI COMO PROCURAR UMA “AGULHA NO PALHEIRO”,,, ESTÁVAMOS QUASE DESISTINDO, QDO TIVEMOS A IDÉIA DE ENTRAR NO TWITTER E…QUE SURPRESA …TE ENCONTRAMOS.
    NA BUSCA DESCOBRIMOS QUE TEMOS UM COLEGA MUITO FAMOSO E EM MIAMI…UAU!!!!!!!!!
    GOSTARÍAMOS que MANTIVESSES CONTATO CONOSCO…SERIA MUITO LEGAL!!!
    PODES NOS ENVIAR TEU E-MAIL PARA FACILITAR NOSSA COMUNICAÇAO.

    BEIJOS

  23. acostaneto said

    Queridas….que bom esse contato.
    Meu email é acnpartners@costaneto.com

    Mande todos os seus contatos.
    Vocês têm Orkut ou facebook.
    Aguardo.
    Beijo

    Toninho

  24. Bia, Medianeira e Rosangela said

    Oi Toninho!
    É muito bom ter contato com pessoas que fizeram parte de nossa vida!
    Olha, para entrares no meu orkut deves digitar, em procurar, “bia henn”. Acho que é assim…
    As “gurias” não têm orkut, mas com certeza conectarão através do teu e-mail que passarei agora para elas.
    Trabalho à tarde, então, pela manhã verifico meus e-mails meio na corrida, pois à noite os filhos (02) tomam conta do pc.
    Adorei que respondeste!Agora que te encontramos, continuaremos a te clicar.
    Tudo de bom para ti.
    Beijo
    Bia

  25. acostaneto said

    Queridas…estou feliz por reencontrar vocês.Vamos nos encontrar DE VERDADE, em Poa quando eu for. Será em breve, possivelmente em Novembro.beijos

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